Broken Promises

Each time I believed your promises,
Hopeful and trusting, despite past misses,
I found myself giving up once more,
Silencing my complaints and closing the door.

And yet, as I withdrew my expectations,
The hurt inside me refused to cessation,
A constant sadness, a lingering pain,
That nothing could cure or ever sustain.

Every time I longed for your affection,
And found myself met with rejection,
I cried a little, died a little,
Piece by piece, I felt my heart whittle.

Deep down, I knew we were finished,
But like an optimist, I waited and wished,
For things to change, as you'd always say,
But mere words couldn't hold our love at bay.

You never acted on what you said,
Leaving us stuck in a cycle of dread,
And now, my hope is fading fast,
As I wait for one mistake, to be my last.

I even wish you'd cheat on me,
To make it easier to leave, to be free,
To tell everyone it was all your fault,
But the truth is, I can't bring myself to halt.

I'm not angry, nor do I hold you to blame,
For not loving me the way I deserve, with flame,
Perhaps, you simply don't know how to love,
And I must choose my own happiness, far above.